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[31 Oct 2007|11:39am] |
oh my god i have not been on here since forever
wow i need to change my pictures on here jeesssus christ
anyway
quick update in life:
* broke up with luke
* got my AS levels (5 As)
* sent off my UCAS form about two weeks ago, have got two offers so far, AAB at york, ABB at manchester. york is my first choice .. well, i'm applying to cambridge but that is more of a long shot i guess
* it is the middle of week two of half term .. which has been amazing so far .. drinking, smoking and drugs with my two 'ugly weekend crew' buddies (so called because .. well .. you can imagine what we look like at the end of a weekend .. although this seems to have been a 14 day weekend)
* i am dying my hair pink today! dunno how it's gonna work out, but y'know
* it is hallowe'en! we are going to nasin, i am dressing up as a dead hooker. good stuff
right well i think that is all really .. i mean obviously not but jesus it would take me forever to update this properly
hope everyone is well
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[03 Jan 2007|11:26pm] |
I got a new livejournal :]
Theres nothing on it yet, but i felt like new year, new journal.
Add it: xmarniex
(i don't know how to do those linking things :])
Will be updating on that one from now on, so ADD ME.
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[01 Jan 2007|09:52pm] |
ooh almost forgot.
new years resolutions.
hmm:
- lose weight (2 stone, but as if)
- get straight A's in my AS levels, or at least work hard at school
- be a better friend
- get new clothes!
i think thats it for now, the losing weight one is the most important one really (& obviously working hard at school, but i basically do that anyway)
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[01 Jan 2007|09:47pm] |
happy new year!
went to a party last night, it was really good.
talked to lots of people, watched 'artistic french films' [aka porn with lots of rape & violence], had a boy to kiss at midnight, got drunk on cheap cider, bacardi & lager [not very nice, for future reference], rhubard & custard sweeties ..
all in all, a great night.
how was everyone's new years eve?
oh also, if anyone doesn't have me on myspace, add:
www.myspace.com/marnie
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okay i have more time to type now
i'm babysitting & pretty bore, no one is online & the internet is slow & i can't use a laptop!
so i haven't really been posting for the last year now!
or 6 months at least.
i'm in my first year of sixth form, work is .. alright.
the lessons are harder but we have less homework.
i have english coursework i really want to do but can't be bothered.
my social life is pretty much the same as usual, medium circle of friends that never changes & i spend all my time with them.
i like it this way.
i had a big fight with my closest circle of friends.
& obviously i mean fight kamasocije style, so we talked it out & i think with time, when i can show them i can be trusted, it will work out.
i can't be bothered to type out all the details of it, but i think the worst has blown over.
love life is same as usual. well literally, i'm still with luke.
been a bit bumpy recently as any long term relationship would be.
usual getting bored, worrying theres better people to be with out there, wanting more experience, feeling tied down, commitment problems.
but i think he's the best i can get right now & i'm happy with him.
it's only when i really think about it & analyze it, or watch sitcoms or rom-coms that i really worry too much.
i'm just gonna take each day as it comes, like i said, i'm really happy right now, so something must be right.
new years ever .. we're planning on crashing a party, should be fun.
not really crashing, our friend was invited, but i supposed as we're not invited then we shouldn't technically be allowed to go.
this isn't even definite.
i feel so unorganised!
at least i know i have people to depend on, so new years eve definitely won't be alone.
aaaaaargh i need to lose weight. scratch that, i need will power so that i can lose weight!
why does sweet stuff taste so nice?
i lost 4 pounds, then put it all back on over christmas
new years resoulution time, that may help.
cutting down to around 1200 calories a day, doing more exercise, new marnie!
i want to do something else drastic too.
i would say hair, but its short & black .. hard to change.
i really want extensions, but expensive!
i also have wanted snakebites since forever, but my mum said that if i get them then she'll stop paying my private school fees, so i'm not going to risk going against her will.
i need new clootheesss.
skirts & drainpipes.
my nike dunks still aren't here yet.
the sales are crap, i don't know how i'm going to get nice clothes at relatively cheap prices.
who am i kidding, by relatively cheap i mean super cheap.
primark doesn't do them anymore, or at least the one by me.
dammit!
i need to go to a gig, i haven't been to one for aageess.
i miss them!
i also wish i saw my friends more, everyone has been so busy recently due to christmas etc.
at least tomorrow should be good, new years eve is always fun.
i loved last years new years eve, it was just so .. free & cliche teenage.
i really need to get fake id.
also need to homework, gahhh.
theres nothing on tv, i'm watching the shoreshank redemption.
i think i've actually run out of things to say!
i'll update in the next three days [i decided that was my resolution, to update lj at least once every three days, unless i literally cannot get online for some reason]
even if its a short little post, it will be there!
god, my pictures on here are so old!
i will change them when i get home, as i'm babysitting & suprisingly they don't have any pictures of me saved on their computer!
hope everyone is well :]
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[30 Dec 2006|10:47am] |
okay
decided that new years resolution is to post here more
it isn't new years yet though so this entry can be shitty :D
i'm ill
it's new years eve tomorrow & me & my CREW haven't decided what we're doing yet
christmas was fun, got some good presents, got some not-so-good presents [which i took back], & got some not-so-good presents that i couldn't take back & are sitting in the back of my wardrobe
i don't want to go back to school
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[25 Aug 2006|12:48pm] |
GCSE results:
Art - A*
Chemistry - A
English - A*
English Literature - A*
French - A
Geography - A*
History - A*
Maths - A
Physics - A*
RS - A*
in other news, summer holidays are pretty great as always. been doing the usual teenage cliche crap, drinking in parks & what not. really don't want to go back to school in september, bahhh.
sorry for the lack of updates recently, i haven't really spent much time online this summer - but don't worry, as soon as i go back to school i'll probably be leaving updates twice a week or something again.
i chose my a-levels: physics, economics, english literature, government & politics.
yeah i'll probably leave a 'memories of summer' post at some point, with a bunch of pictures from the last few months, that'll be sweet.
how has everyones summer been? & i hope anyone who did exams got the results they wanted :]
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PART ONE OF UBER UPDATE:
HEY.
long time no type.
i've just been so busy with summer & stuff, seriously.
it's almost 1am, i'm at my nans, no one is really online, so i figured now is as good a time as any.
although i have no pictures on this computer, and i have plenty at home, so i'll do a second update on saturday pretty much purely of pictures probably.
summer is amazing.
it's everything i hoped it would be and more.
although katy, sophie & jessica have gone to china, and i miss them so much.
ciara has gone to ireland too, oh man i miss them all.
i want my friends back >:o
basically i've been spending alot of time with luke, as he is the only close friend i have left in the country.
i also have my extended park crew, theres about 17 of us or something who hang out in parks YEAH I KNOW WE'RE COOL.
i think far too much has happened for me to sum up.
we've been threatened by chavs far too many times.
we started a fire in the park & the fire engine came so we had to RUN AWAY.
some middle aged people starting playing football around us with children because we wouldn't move from our spot and i got HIT IN THE FACE WITH A FOOTBALL.
i've had girly sleepovers in, which i love.
drunken nights out, which i love.
romantic lovey dovey silly days, which i love.
sleepy in days where you and a friend can just be comfortably lazy, which i love.
it's all been great.
i need to arrange camping for some time in august, urgh that'll be a hassle.
but it'll be amazing so probably worth it.
i want blonde hair extensions, what does anyone think?
also fuck it is hot, my butt is sweating on this leather chair.
mmm.
i got the pill the other day, but i can't use it until i get my next period (which is actually over a week late now, but nothing to worry about i'm sure)
me & luke went to buckingham palace & big ben & all those londony sites.
i'll make an entry about it when i'm home so i can post pictures & stuff.
me & luke are almost at one year now :]
well done marnie.
my parents are away on holiday with the twins, so i'm left alone at me nans.
it's alright though actually, i just spend most of the day out, & then night on the computer or sleeping.
wow i can't remember much of summer to type about.
it's quite hard really.
also I AM SHITTING MYSELF ABOUT GCSE RESULTS.
me & luke had this chance to be on this BBC documentary where they put teenage couples in a house together for a month with a baby & a job & a budget & shit & they have to like, live. but my parents said no cos i had to miss a month of school so that was gay.
but still.
this summer has made me so happy.
also i need new clothes, seriously.
i have like two skirts & they're MINGING.
okay i'm tired i'm gonna finish off here, part one of my UBER UPDATE.
catch you all later xxxxx
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[15 Jun 2006|02:04pm] |
I'M CRYING IN THE IT ROOM.
well not crying but 'marnie crying' y'know
so embarassed
SO EMBARASSED
only ciara knows what i'm talking about
well and amna
but
OMG I AM SO EMBARASSED
also tomorrow is the last exam yay
but its 2:00 & i haven't looked a book yet
like since we left for study leave
aojdfasdf so embarassed kill me now
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[02 Jun 2006|04:53pm] |
bar exams, life is:
got back from lowestoft the day before yesterday.
spent yesterday with luke, was good.
ummm.
am planning on starting revision in 10 minutes, it's 16:50.
ummmmm.
yeah these entries are gonna be pretty boring atm, until SUMMER which will be filled with adventures & stuff.
:]
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[26 May 2006|10:22pm] |
by the way.
on my last entry.
if you think it's about you, but then are like 'psch no, why would she write one about me?' then it's probably about you.
I FEEL SO SICK URGH SO ILL URGH I THINK I HAVE FOOD POISONING OR SOMETHING URGH.
also failed rs.
also have to learn SO MUCH SHIT and haven't done any revision today.
i went to starbucks with the crew, so much fun. :]
short entry etc x
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10 people thing.
hardly any of them are on lj btw.
actually i'll make some of them on lj for the sake of it.
1. we used to be best friends. but you're not part of the group anymore. the sad thing is, i'm beyond caring now. i can cope without you, the process has just happened, and it seems like a natural progression. i'll miss you, but i know that we're going to drift even further apart. i'm still angry at you for taking certain things from me. i think i will always slightly resent you, whatever happens.
2. you're my best friend. although sometimes i don't know why :] we've had our UPS AND DOWNS in our time, but yeah. i'm glad we're friends. SUMMER IS GOING TO BE AMAZING.
3. we didn't really used to be very close, but recently i really feel like we're finally getting somewhere. it's really nice to know i have people i can depend on and talk to and share everything with. i really think after the summer we're going to be even closer & be even more BEST BUDS.
4. again, we've never really been that close. i don't why. you and me in the group just can't seem to click for some reason. but we're making progress, and summer and THE STASH will put an end to any awkwardness we might have. by sixth form we'll be like TIGHT. the whole crew. truss.
5. i love you. even though you piss the hell out of me sometimes. and you're nothing like what i thought i wanted. so it's confusing. but hey, the heart wants what it wants. and everything seems to have turned out fantastically. even if i am kinda inarticulate at attempting to say how i'm feeling. summer is going to be so amazing, i can't wait to just spend more time with you - i don't think i'll ever not get home late.
6. YOU ARE A BITCH. THE FUCK. WHY ARE YOU SO INSENSITIVE. YOU DO THIS EVERY TIME. JUST SCRAPE OUT. FIND YOUR OWN FRIENDS. FIND YOUR OWN LIFE. SERIOUSLY. GTFO. GO AWAY. I TRIED GIVING YOU SO MANY CHANCES, I'VE BEEN SO NICE TO YOU AS OF LATE, AS OF FOR A LONG TIME ACTUALLY. WHY DO YOU HAVE TO DO THE THING YOU KNOW I WOULD HATE MOST. no excuses.
7. i've never met you. i don't even know you that well. but we really seem like, two halves. i really hope that the downward spiral we've been as late sorts itself out, because i really think we have so far we can go, and we could connect and be friends really well. we just need to sort ourselves out and give this a chance.
8. we haven't spoken since FOREVER. we used to be like. not even bbfs. but like, i don't know. able to just chat about random shit and music and stuff for AGES. well, actually about how shit my music is. but WHATEVER. i blame me most of all, i haven't been going to where we used to talk, or talking on msn. but we should keep in touch.
9. we used to be friends, ages ago. you're still cool. i really wish we could like, be .. i don't know. doesn't even have to be friends. just SOMETHING. like talk more. i don't think you like me. which is a shame. because i think you're really cool. haha, okay thats lame. which is proably why you don't like me. but y'know. it crosses my mind every now and again.
10. i miss you. we don't talk. i know we only met once. but i seriously liked you so much when we used to talk. i know you'll never read this - livejournal isn't exactly your thing - but i wish i could tell you this. but i know i can't, we've both moved on, we both don't need to talk any more. it's not the same. we've both changed. i hate that we have. i really just wish we could talk again, and meet up again, and just - hang out. i know we could get on well. our shyness fails us on both sides. but it's too late for everything. it's a shame thinking of what could have been. well i think it could have, but you probably have a different opinion to me. i just hate how things turned out, and i never saw anything like this happening.
okay, now to MEEE.
exams. had english lit. first time i've ever not finished an english literature exam. i also wrote so much crap. i'm so annoyed at myself, english lit is actually a subject which i could have got an a* in it, but i fucked up.
also rs. should have revised for that. but no. i flopped that. i also have the other half of it tomorrow & know even less than i knew for the one yesterday.
but they shall be over in like, three weeks or something, so yay for that :]
then SUMMER. it's going to be so amazing, i cannot wait. i'm not going to spend like, any time in my house at all. GO PARK GET DRUNK as my good friend sophie would say. i'm slightly worried because at one point, for two weeks, ALL of my friends will be away. hmm. i'm sure i'll find someone. if not, i don't know. bury myself in a hole, hibernate, & then stay awake for the rest of the summer. that could work, right?
i need money. urgh ALLOW actually. i'll scavenge off someone.
omg it's my birthday in like FOUR MONTHS. i realise thats ages away, but it seems like hardly any time since my last birthday. i'll be 17. i can drive :] thats probably what i'll get, driving lessons & being allowed to use the car. neat.
i feel like a change. i'm going to do something to my hair after exams. probably dye it all black, obviously. but something else as well. hmm.
i also need more BOWS. also OMG SIXTH FORM CLOTHES. going to be so much fun, cannot wait.
i would do a whole entry about what i'm feeling and stuff, but i'm blocking about any emotional problems whilst i have exams. speaking of which, i should go revise.
oh one last thing. my good friend said that i don't treat people well, and she hates the way i treat people. she didn't go into details, because she said she wanted to have a proper conversation about it after exams. that kinda hurt me, i never really saw myself as one of those people.
anyway, wish me luck!
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[20 May 2006|07:14pm] |
In one fell swoop it became clear to me,
that I despise you entirely,
but the good news is I'm gonna keep you around
And so your lust is just convenient now
i'm scared about exams.
i have no will power.
i still haven't decided on my problem.
it's not even a big deal.
i keep updating this so i'm doing something 'constructive' instead of revision.
i almost wish i could cut everyone & everything out right now.
i hate making choices.
i don't know enough about either side to make this decision either.
i need to wait and see how things turn out.
i hate waiting.
i'm in the worst moods constantly at the moment.
i get stressed too easily.
i'm deluding myself also.
the person who i would normally talk my problems over with i can't. because it involves them.
i also have a problem which has been building up, with another person who i'm so close to. i can't talk to her though.
because i'm being irrational.
i don't have a reason for anything.
you're so sensitive, i am a machine.
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[20 May 2006|12:45pm] |
How can everyone go on breathing when true love ends
Heaven's not a place that you go when you die
It's that moment in life when you actually feel alive
So live for the moment
And take this advice, live by every word
Love is just a hoax so forget anything that you have heard
And live for the moment now.
I'm very confused right now. I'm in a situation and I don't know what the right decision is. I'm just going to ignore it and see what happens.
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[13 May 2006|11:08pm] |
QUICK UPDATE AS I WANT BED.
lukes party on friday.
i had much fun.
was worried there might be a slight social divide, between my CRU & lukes CRU.
there was kinda at first, but then people drunk more & loosened up a bit & all was buff in the end.
I HAD A DREADLOCK IN MY BOOB ALL NIGHT.
i lost it but then i got it again the next day.
so i got home friday night (well, this morning technically) by about 1:00am, then went to sleep etc, woke up bright & early & head back over to lukes again where he was in bed with OTHER WOMEN.
but it's okay because he doesn't know what i get up to when he's not aware
eh eh eh eh eh
um so yeah, then we went to pizza hut.
we had a competition to see who could rip of the £3.99 all you could eat pizza buffet at pizza hut.
i won of course.
daniel = 8 (and a bite)
luke = 9
marnie = THIRTEEN 13 THIRTEEN 13 THIIRRTEEENNN
being fat can actually have its uses.
YAY I WIN.
so basically we got like £40 worth of pizza for £12.
i also feel like i'm going to explode.
& i ate like 89237432 hours ago.
jookeees.
anyway, i need sleep & ting.
will proper update tomorrow probs.
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[04 May 2006|04:37pm] |
i think i might have a relapse of glandular.
I HATE YOU MATTHEW HORWOOD.
nah who i am kidding i could never hate you OMFGLEGEND.
but seriously.
if anyone ever gives me an STD again [lawl]
i am going to cut their penis off
& keep it
in a jar
unless i wanted to play with it
which would probably be quite often.
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[03 May 2006|05:05pm] |
SO ME AND SOPHIE HAVE DECIDED TO UPDATE OUR LIVEJOURNALS EVERY DAY.
even if i have nothing to say :]
french orals were kinda shit, i suck under pressure.
AH WELL LET'S NOT MENTION THAT AGAIN.
omg this summer is going to be SO amazing.
i seriously cannot wait.
ARGGGHHHHHKKK.
etc etc.
& me and MARI CRISI EL MINGO SPANISH are going bra shopping on tuesday
lawwwllll
art exam next monday & tuesday, feck & all that.
ah well ALLOW.
seriously though i cannot wait till the summer.
just like, infinite days of NOTHINGNESS and ALCOHOLNESS and FRIENDNESS.
ajsdashdkahgsdasdaidioau.
oh, just to balance out this entry, i've been feeling really shit & insecure recently.
i block it out because i'm kinda used to it.
but like, nothing seems good enough.
my body isn't thin enough, my boobs aren't big enough, my brain isn't clever enough, my face isn't pretty enough, my morals aren't .. moral enough, my love isn't good enough, my conversation isn't interesting enough
ETC ETC BLAH BLAH OMGZ EMO *SLITZ* LAWL ETC.
in other news;
ilsophie
in other news;
i'm gonna go watch friends! :]
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[01 May 2006|06:24pm] |
sup?
been a while since i last updatedm, nothing new has really been going on is all.
i went to give it a name this weekend, it was pretty great.
there were like, 8 year old wannabe scenesters there though.
like WTF.
i spazzed out majorly.
like seriously, it was so weird.
basically it was just like a huge room full of 10,000 buff people and buff music.
i preferred the sunday, though i reckon most people preferred the saturday.
i can't be bothered to go through each band or anything, but taking back sunday were probably my favourite.
i also loovvedd say anything, and also panic! at the disco & MCR.
i saw panic! at the disco last tuesday as well, me, jess & soph danced through literally the whole set.
we were in an area where people were just standing or sitting & watching as well, & then we came & were like LLOLOLOLOLOLO *dance*
but yeah, back to give it a name.
men women & children were so jokes. they tried to do this thing where they said something about monkeys, & the audience was supposed to reply something, but like, no one shouted it back because it was just so stupid.
i even felt embarassed for them.
crap i have a feeling this is going to be an obese entry.
tl;dr
ah well
i'm just procrastinating because i have my french orals tomorrow
i think i'm going to pretty much update in this every day again
just like, a few lines though, instead of some TONK thing
yeah so give it a name
i wanted to be so many of the people there
like seriously
i don't even care how lame i sound, i realllyy do
hahaha, the girls behind me in the toilet had some JOKES conversation though
"omggg, where are your extensions from?"
"like, from china or something?"
"they're soo coool"
"like, i know! but on my first picture on my myspace i have my real hair"
"omg, you have myspace?"
"omg, me too"
"you're like, the first person i've met in real life before i met them on myspace"
"omgg no waii"
"omg how many friends do you have?"
etc etc
OH also at the end of the gig, me & luke were like walking around, and there were MASSIVE CLUMPS OF PEOPLE'S HAIR EXTENSIONS THAT HAD FALLEN OUT DURING THE GIG.
i mean there were loads of them.
it basically summed up the whole thing.
hm i have no idea what my chest size/length is.
i want to buy a t-shirt, but all the cool ones are boys t-shirts, and i have no idea what age to get.
like i swear age 7 would be a girl fit or something?
maybe a bit bigger, idk.
hmmmmm.
i have my french oral exam on wednesday.
i have so much work to do to be ready in time.
URGH ALLOW.
also i haven't started revising for GCSEs.
which is so gay it is unreal.
fuck fuck fuck.
i had an easter egg for lunch today.
& now i feel ill.
friends are pretty good, i think i've gotten closer to one of them in the last few months, which is a really great thing.
it can be quite hard, because theres five of us in our 'crew', and it seems impossible for each person to be equally as good friends with the others.
i feel closer to some than the others, and i wish i didn't sometimes, but then again it's nice to have a few really really close friends.
boyfriend = still going strong.
i'm not a skank any more, how great am i right? one man girl & all that.
thing is though.
it's like, i normally don't want a boyfriend at summer.
but i want luke.
if that makes sense.
also, i think it might be kinda neat to be with someone who you actually love, and are close with.
i really need to make sure i don't get bored though.
like, don't get me wrong, i'm completely non-bored at the moment.
and i might be able to go ages without getting bored.
it's just that i know my personality.
and this isn't like it.
so i'm figuring that at some point in time, it's going to happen.
even though i don't want it to.
BRB I HAVE TO GO COOK POTATOES.
back.
my social life is going to be so non-existent as we near exams.
gaybar.
i haven't read many journals for a while, i'm gonna go & lurk.
probably update more later innit.
WISH ME LUCK FOR MY ORALS.
xxx
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